So i didn't say what happebd between me and bree last time. she came over to hear my sied of the story about tonya. i thouhgt she would take tonya's side, hell i take tonya's side. so i just start talking about how im awful, and gross. but bree still tries to help. i tell her i don’t want help and we get in to it. she leavs but as i asking her not to under my breath . I didn’t think she heard me but she did.
That's what brings us to today. Carolyn shows up at my house. hinting that im overwaight and that i need to work out because in 2 weeks she needs me to do a fashion show ahe has a punk line if clothes and I'm the first one she thought of she already had them in the size i was at the last show. but before that she heard i wasnt skating and that i had even been blacklisted, which was true my last manager was not happy i fired him. so she had got ma a demo this week it's friday in fact. i would need to make sure i brought my a game sponsors would be there. just saying that woman is scary.
Will i got dressed and went to my faverot skate park to train. but on the way i ran in to Jess. I tried my best to not bust out in to teris and im sorry. but then she told me she was moiving back home. my hart snake a bit i asked her to stay at lest till friday for what may be my last skate demo as skating wasn’t fun any more. she said sure and left very fast. i guess she just didn’t want to be around me too long.
Truth was skating wasn't fun hell i hadn't done it in a year just all this bullshit made me nit want to and my last manager made me sick of it. in truth i need this demo to make it fun again. and while traing today i was enjoying my self mostly whent i got a lot of air time on the half pipe. feeling better after a long day of skating i went back home but i ran in to tonya.
She told me that jess was looking for me but i said i know and tried to say sorry. she told me to save it she didn't seem mad but she seemed done. i got yhe feeling i hurt her real nad. i just thought it was that curse but i think it was more for her. I started to feel like human garbage again but told her about the show. The we parted ways because again im the worst and she shouldn’t have to suffer me for that long.
While at home Bree came by. she grabbed and told max to come with because im staying with her and not my dump of a house. without jess i didn't know how to fix it so it was bad. I'm at her place now we wacthed stranger things and ate ice cream. also not schocked to find out she told Carolyn i was in a bad way and maybe letting myself go knowing she couldn't help but Carolyn could even if it kills me. that was my day so i don't know if things are better or worse now ill know friday though.
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